Wednesday, 15 August 2007
this is the 4th night so far that i'm still awake past 2am and frankly i have no idea why. for the last 2 days ive had to wake up early at 6+ am for school cuz my lectures are at 8 am. maybe ive gotten too used to sleeping late.. but it's wreaking havoc on my skin. sigh. i shld totally try to cut back on this nocturnal pattern of mine.. juz seems lik there's always trivial chores popping up that take my attention away from the things i NEED to do, and thus i end up sleeping late. lack of focus here i guess?
well well well.. so Uni has finally started! 2ml (or rather, today) will be my third proper day of tertiary schooling =) how has it been so far? it's been rather hellish actually. hmm i dno. maybe cuz everyday has been off to a bad, tired start. on monday i had 3 lectures in a row, all about chemistry. lol. during the 1st lect i was stoning and dreaming alr.. and it was the easiest lect summore.. not even real chem la.. u can imagine my mental state during the following 2 lects.. haha. sigh. all my profs are foreigners haha ^^ 2 Hongkongers and 1 Caucasian. interesting. im not too sure about my maths prof but i know all my chem profs are foreigners =) sigh i was quite bothered abt one of my chem lects.. CM1101 Principles of Modern Chemistry. i tot this was gonna be a chickenfeed module but it's turning out to be real difficult =( it's got so much physics in it! it's as tho i'm taking a psuedo-physics module instead of a chem module. we're learning about wavelength spectra or smth liddat.. smth to do with the radiation from particles within an atom.. omg.. can't even remember. all i know is that it's super cheem and i was struggling through the whole lect.. and it's the first module for which we're given hw alr =(( sigh. i read the questions and felt my brain begin to short-circuit.. it's lik all maths n physics la.. so many formulae.. haiix. first time that i've felt the effects of not taking a particular subj.. usually i'm the one who has to explain bio concepts to my frens who din take bio and so on etc.. but now it's lik my physics frens have to explain to me. feel so powerless and helpless. how am i to understand a whole new subj in lik a single lesson? i have a bio-and-chem-oriented brain, not a physics brain! it'll take quite some time for me to get used to this i guess...my fren said this module is similar to Quantum Physics.. lik wtf? -.-"
today i only had 1 lect for the whole day: maths lect from 8 - 10 am. not too bad, the lect today.. can understand. quite interesting too. =) our lecturer was good XD. after that, i pangsei-ed my frens and went out to shop by myself.. experienced retail therapy in Guardian and Popular. bought lik $20+ worth of PENS?! sigh. i was walking ard Tiong Bahru Plaza and i started thinking about my spending habits.. like i spend way too easily, i feel. like if it's a small amt of $$ (eg below 15 bucks) i'll be lik, aiyah it's ok lah it's not much anyway. but how much will it be after it all adds up? was quite bothered by that. then i walked past the supermarket and saw lots of ppl queueing up at the cashiers'.. and tot to myself, these ppl are preparing to part with their $$ and interestingly, none of them look happy. haiiz. i spent quite a lot today.. isnt it funny how sometimes u juz pick out things from the racks and when u see the amount u have to pay at the cashier's, u get a shock? that happens to me so often. but i just up and pay anyway. i think im quite paiseh to change my mind and say i don't want the stuff. that only happens when im lik near broke.. but if im near broke i'll be more choosy abt what to buy. not so with NETS. curse or blessing? haiiix..
yeah.. think i shld be more thick-skinned and be more hardhearted with my $$. my dad's always telling me to keep my $$ in my pocket and find ways to get $$ outta OTHER people's pockets. he says that's success. well.... tis true in a way i guess.. i realised that if i stuck to merely paying for meals and transport in a week, i spend relatively little; it's all the retail therapy that gets me. hmmm.. there's much to ponder about. but i signed up for this financial mini-seminar thing next week so guess it'll be an eye-opener (and hopefully a wallet-closer) XD
im sian-ded. i did nth productive 2night. sigh. dear's off for urban warfare training today n 2ml so i din hear from him tonight.. im missing him so much. think we must meet this weekend and have a good talk. there are some things bothering me.
alrighty, off to bed! my head hurts.. oh, the other day i was persuaded into buying some tiny tiny jar of collagen eye-cream at the city hall Guardian. the promoter was quite shocked at my gnormous dark shadows and deep wrinkles.. apparently ppl my age arent supposed to have such bad eye appearance. she din haf a single wrinkle below her eyes la, for the record. she mustve been in her twenties or early thirties? she kept speaking mandarin the whole time and i only understood lik 30% LOL. well it's true that my eyes are in horrible shape now la.. they feel really tired and get itchy often. and yeah my eye shadows are shocking. sighx.. hmm to illustrate just how much of a financial chickenbrain i am, i bought ANOTHER jar of eye cream at Guardian today. it's Nivea Visage. lol. lik wtf? it must be at least 4 times the size of the other jar and it's cheaper la.. but i guess cuz the other jar is from some ulu pricey brand.. bleh.. i hate getting pounced on by promoters from such brands. they tout the effects of their stuff and in the end i haf to tell them (albeit quite paiseh-ingly) that it's far too ex for (even) me. yeah. LOL then they say it's not ex! for all the benefits, it's not ex! haha i dno lah i find it ridiculously amusing. oh sigh. i shld sleep MORE MORE MORE!
i miss my dear =( and i miss having an orgasm. i want my Summer's Eve feminine wash for sensitive skin =( i realised i bought body wash the other time.. no wonder the bottle looked bigger.. sigh im such a twit. what for have eyes if u don't use them!?
t00tP.S. i got my 5th module! SP1202, the module that ive been bidding for all along.. haha apparently in the later rounds no one wants to bid alr =) so i got it cheap cheap!
reaching out again
3:30 am
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