we all want to SHINE

So would you dare to be different
When everyone's consolidating
Would you reach out elsewhere
And turn your back on the population
Would you pursue dreams over mountains
Scaling over cliffs of self-resistance
Maybe race to catch a shooting star
When your world's crumbling to pieces
Could you dive deep into the unknown
Or beyond the depths of your imagination
Charting your own path through the winds of fate
Be it to Heaven or your own destruction

So,
Will you go the distance?
Will you dare to be different?

EXUDing light

● Rachel
● 20 yrs old
● Scorpio
● 18/11/88
● itsnotfarnie@hotmail.com
● ex-NY girl
● ex-NJCian
● always an NJ archer :)
● on-off shoppaholic
● NUS Sci - Class of 2007

●RAVES● - sexy hot glam funky fashion/shopping online/shopping w my best galpals ;)/groovy music/comedies/cartoons/movies/documentaries/Knowledge :)/botany & zoology/organic chem/lip products/facial masks/analysing & watching people/learning/aspiring/growing/ appreciating/art & craft/reading/sleeping

♥LOVES♥ - gotta learn to love myself first..

●WANTS● - flattering & affordable clothes/comfy shoes/a toned & healthier body/a redeco-ed room/more space in my room!/a more disciplined me/gorgeous unique accessories/a green thumb/a bright future/for my dreams to come true :)

Monday, 23 July 2007

miserable.

that's how today (sunday) was.. cuz i finally realised the gravitas of the situation. that is, that my dear WR is finally gone and i won't be able to talk to him for a whole 2 weeks.. i woke up and i din know what to do so i just lay in bed thinking. it's so weird to spend a sunday at home when i usually spend it with him.. sigh. they say that u dno what u have till it's gone and it's proving to be true in this case.. as always.. i'm missing him so much. really regret not spending more time yesterday connecting and too much time making out.. geez.. guess we really shldnt lie down together. dangerous. but i smile when i think about all the lame crap n jokes he said yesterday =) what i'm only cute on feb 29th.. man that was so precious la.. wtf.. sigh my dear's so amazing and it's times like that when it really hits me. haiiix....

today i din wanna go out at all.. nearly went out twice.. first to the gym with my family n second out for dinner but i decided not to for both times. i stoned in fronta the com staring blankly at shopping sites.. while feeling my blood pressure increasing steadily due to Charlie's incessant screeching.. man.. someone should shoot that bird, honestly. i nearly wanted to lah. wtf. alone at home with Charlie is akin to mental torture.. sigh.. so many things left undone as usual... this afternoon i received a call from dear and it was such a surprise =) but it's gonna be the last call i receive from him for these 2 weeks =( cuz the officers r confiscating all the handphones. sigh. after the call i just sat on my bed and played Brad Paisley - Find Yourself, and cried abit.. can't believe that dear won't be part of my life for these 2 weeks =( i know it sounds really short but i can't help feeling lik it's so long. today felt so long alr. felt so lonely n lost.. i guess i'll really have to try n re-organise my life from now on.. gotta make full use of the time available to me now. i can make this temporary separation a good thing as long as i'm disciplined i guess.

note to self: jiayou and work hard for the next 2 weeks!

dear, i love you and i'm missing you so much. really hope ull be fine in ure training.. i know it sucks when ure feeling shitty n there's no one u can turn to.. i felt lik that today. really looking forward to when you come back. i'll wait for u i promise. love you babyy.. *huggss* love you.

reaching out again
2:11 am

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